to my sweetheart:
hi. so there are a lot of things i have to say this time around. its been a while, a long while, and i regret nothing. it has been good, its been great actually, but there are so many things i have to get off of my chest.
there are these little things about you, little flaws, that i know i have to get over, but i just cannot shake it off as of this moment.
you are forgetful; but not the kind of "i forgot my phone" forgetful, but you miss the dates. you miss the details. when i am the one to initiate to ask for a date, it has been more than once you have forgotten and made other plans. when i say "its alright", i am lying through my teeth. it is not alright. i am not alright. i wish you would pick up on the hint and cancel the other plans you had made to spend time with me. but sometimes i guess im not important enough.
when you tell me one thing you go back on your word; most of the time it has to do with the movies we say we will watch together. its cute how enthusiastic you are about seeing a new movie that just came out, but when you promise to watch it with me and go out and watch it with your friends, its not so cute anymore. it hurts. it makes me upset. and you notice im upset, and when i tell you what is wrong, you still dont cancel or tell your friends "sorry, i was going to watch that with my girlfriend". you go out anyway. sometimes, i guess im not important enough.
this last one may just seem outrageously stupid and idiotic, but you're such a guy; you're insensitive, inconsiderate, and blind to my feelings. if a girl friend of yours bothers me and i ask about it, why do you have to reprimand me and turn it around so it seems like im the one who's mistaken? if i am not comfortable with you hanging around or talking to or even snapchatting that person, i wish you would just tell me "baby, im sorry, i wont anymore". but i think im living in a fantasy world with magical fairies where dreams are only in your sleep. because sometimes, im not important enough.
i know i have flaws as well; i know i can be annoying, i know i can be a little too moody, i know i can be pushy, hell, i know sometimes im really damn unreasonable, but i wish that you'd think about how i feel, how it is in my shoes, and stop asking "whats wrong with you" everytime i act out.
its not fair.
and i hate it.
a lot of the times, i hate you.
because sometimes, i guess im not important enough.